I don't know what hurts more. Being mislead repeatedly (which means I fucking trusted you) or the fact that i keep falling for it. Or is it that you drop a bomb on me and disappear?
I hope it's worth it. Just say what you mean. Mean what you say and say what you mean. You can make me the bad guy if you want but this is the last second chance.
I'm not perfect and I've got shit to work through. I'm embarrassed that I let you get this deep. I thought there was something pure and real in you but maybe I was wrong. I hold into the hope that it'll get better but if time has shown me anything is that it never does. You just learn to live with the hurt and the bullshit.
It's hard to be reaching out for a hand to hold only to realize that there isnt anyone there...
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